Oh Em Gee WTF am I doing updating my XANGA?!!!!11 I killed and buried this thing years ago.
But this is a special occasion so I'm digging it out of it's grave.
1) Doing a collaboration manga with Jen-chan, Reyes (Yes, THAT Jonathan Reyes e_e), and Lyz before Lyz dropped out.
2) Wrote best Japanese essay of my life. Boo-ya.
I have MSN now so hit me up SLUTS. dreamertakako@msn.com
Oh yeah and to see my new art go to www.dreamertakako.deviantart.com if you have a DA account, you best add me before I hunt yo' ass down.
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.taisetsu na kimi e.
Hidoi dakara ...mada konna baka na koto wo iu no.
Yowai dakara ... ano toki to hanarete deki nai no.
Because I'm horrible, I'm still saying these crazy things
Because I'm weak, I can't let go of the past
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"gomenasai" wo iitai. soshite, "sayounara."
i want to say i'm sorry
and... goodbye.
yappari atashi wa ano koro no shoutarou-kun, isshou wasurenai.
for the rest of my life i won't forget shoutarou... the way he was in the past
ano koro no shoutarou-kun ga... tashika ni suki datta. tamaranaku hodo suki datta mo akogareta. kare mitai na hito ni naritakatta. kare no shiawase dake hoshii katta.
without a doubt i loved him. i admired and loved him so much i couldn't take it
i wanted to be like him
i only wanted his happiness
sabishii me de... shizuka ni warateta sono kare no subete ga shinuhodo suki datta. ima wa mada jibun ga baka na koto to omou kedo,
with sad eyes, he quietly smiled... i loved him so much i could have died. even now i think it's stupid,
kitto ima mo atashi ni totte ichiban taisetsu na omoide yo.
even now they're my most precious memories
nante baka na iu koto. ano toki wa mou modoranai no ni... modoru hazu ga nai no ni.
what stupid thoughts... those times will never return. there's no way they could return.
demo kore wa jijitsu nan da.
but this is the truth.
ano toki, kare no koto yoku miteta. utsukushii hitomi mo... tsukue no ue de adeyaka ni kubi wo mageta tabi mo.
i used to watch him. his beautiful eyes, and the way he bent his head gracefully over his desk.
tanin ni wakaranai kedo atashi wa itsumo shiteta.
even if other people don't understand, i always knew
kare no imeji wa sutto atashi no kokoro o someteruno. atashi no subete wa kare no tame ni ikite tsuzukeru. dokomade mo atashi no kimochi wa atashi no naka dake de tsuzukeru yo.
his image will always stain my mind. all of my being will live for him. my feelings for him will live on, only inside of me...
... isshou... wasurenai dakara.
I'll never forget you
tatoe atashi no omoide, atashi no fueteru kioku de.
Even if it's only as my visions, my trembling memories.
- by taka 12.7.04 | 
